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Sharron Bassano's avatar

So much to relate to in this soulful piece, Conor.

"...I miss the feeling of missing something that's no longer here" ( or missing something that never even was )

"... the nadir of the self..." ( the only solace in being at the nadir is, of course, that the only direction now is UP)

... and I can't remember when I stopped being a starling to become a bat who longed to be a starling again ... ( no, me neither...)

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C J O'Hare's avatar

Cheers Sharron - I had a feeling you would be a bit of a black sheep too - Ive always felt like I was on the outside looking in, or more accurately, the only one under the looking glass! Perfect conditions for a writer to form I feel ;)

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Sharron Bassano's avatar

Yes, for me, it is an ennui that comes from entering adulthood in the sixties, I think. When the era was over, it left an unshakable melancholy in its wake.

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C J O'Hare's avatar

I can't even begin to imagine what growing up in California in the 60s might have been like - but it must've been something else!

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Sharron Bassano's avatar

San Francisco, 1967. It was nothing, if not liberating. But freedom brings its own set of problems.

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Jill CampbellMason's avatar

I think it was something else everywhere!!

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C J O'Hare's avatar

I'm a child of the 80s but I think the 60s changed the world for all of us Jill - what a time to be alive!

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K.C. Knouse's avatar

This line reveals the writer: "When did seeing come to rely

on opening a pair of eyes?" Writers see with their souls.

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C J O'Hare's avatar

Exactly K.C - as writers, we are always encouraged to describe our experiences with ALL of our senses, but like the bat in the poem, that experiences a murmuration that is only copies or echoes of itself, we cannot always trust what we "see" - for that, we may need the testimony of the many, the collective representations of reality i.e. the starlings point of view.

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Mike Web's avatar

"I miss the feeling

of missing something that's no longer here."

Man, I felt that!!

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C J O'Hare's avatar

I often think that in another 20 years things will have changed so much (again) that I'll be hit with another front of hiraeth! Of course - there are some things that are gone that will remain missed for all our lives - cheers Mike!

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Douglas Bruton's avatar

There is so much to love here, so many wonderful lines, murmurations if you will, individually lovely but taken all together a brilliant miracle of words. loved this.

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C J O'Hare's avatar

Thanks Douglas, that's very generous. I went to town in this one, more than usual - a murmuration of one indeed!

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Mr. Majestyk BPK's avatar

I am grateful I stumbled across this. Wow! Nice job.

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C J O'Hare's avatar

Thanks Brion - there are plenty more available to read, I think I have almost 40 publications now, mostly poetry - and there will be plenty more in the days to come!

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Jill CampbellMason's avatar

Today you hit chords with murmurations!

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C J O'Hare's avatar

Thanks Jill!

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Henry Romain's avatar

"a cold fumbling rain, thundering onto the paper,

humbling the black ink back to its living state;

this moribund procession of words weeping

towards each other for comfort; funneling

into communal confession, the booth:

the blotting paper of reflection."

So fucking good man.

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C J O'Hare's avatar

Cheers Henry - and for the re-stack too - good to see you back sharing your fine work again on Substack btw - hope you've been well.

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B Stings's avatar

To flying in the great and grand murmuration! Well done

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C J O'Hare's avatar

I'll see you there B . . . Cheers!

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B Stings's avatar

see you there!

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